We Will Never Say Bye

hello
im back again
after few days struggling...

i was really really upset few days ago

i cant really tell why, but most part of it is because i miss my mom so much...

i really really miss her and i miss her and feeling like seeing her everywhere. i mean, " apple will not falls far from the tree", everything i have today, everything im still using today, every places that im still going today is all because of her. maybe not every places but i still seeing her in every single little thing i do and where i go. i really wish she is here.

the most scariest is at home, i live with my grandparents now. the place where she used to lived. i still seeing her walking the door and told me to go to sleep every night. i still remember where i need to helped her to climb on the stairs from our basement parking lot, the day when i found out she's turning so...weak and fragile. she carry her weak and skinny body climbing the stairs one by one, sometimes we even have to stop in the middle because she was so tired...stuff like this... i miss her so much.

i really dont know since when i became such a crybaby. i cried all the time. everytime i thought about her i just cant help myself. i know she wouldnt happy if i cry so often like these ):

and i have to admit it that now im crying another river, such a huge effort to finish this blog.

lift my head to the sky cos,
We will never say bye...